” I am becoming forever more the real woman I truly aspire to be!”
I picked this photograph on Flickr which describes well the feeling in my body and spirit of my intention for the weeks to come!
Photo credit: Weisseespitze
Last night I did a yoga session on Sankalpa with my beloved teacher Dr.Melissa West.
A Sankalpa, as Melissa explains, is an intention that you set in motion like a seed that you plant in your own heart and being. It should really resonate with your core and align with your essence. As you begin to honor and focus on your intention, it begins to move and manifest in your outer world!
I knew I could really benefit from doing this session as a new week was just going to begin the following day and I felt the need to regroup and gain some focus in order to insure that I really move forward with what is truly important in my life!
Things often unfold and open up in ways I don’t expect them to when I do yoga. It is like I get out of my own way or you could say out of my head as I gently move my body and attune my body and being to the movement and poses required!
And to better express what rose up in this session for me last night, here is a few things I would like to share with you!
I hired some help this last week which is a big step for me. I have been very fragile with my health and doing all that I can to change my whole lifestyle; putting a really healthy foundation in place, something that I can stand on and build my life upon.
My days have been full with simply taking proper care of myself, attending the basic chores around my home and growing all my sprouts which is a huge endeavor as it is the main source of my diet.
But in all this I would end up exhausted at the end of each day and this left me with more of a sense of keeping up and copping with these awesome systems that I am putting in place rather than gaining real energy and healing from them which is ultimately the real goal in all this.
I know to be gentle and patient in this process of unfolding, transformation and healing but I also know that I need to be honest in assessing what is really taking place in order to insure that I am actually really moving forward with all the positive changes that I am implementing in my life.
It got clear to me that I needed some help to lighten the burden of those daily, repetitive chores if I wanted to insure that I focus some of my energy on what will actually propel me forward the most!
By lightening up the burden of these energy taxing, time consuming daily chores, I would gain time and energy to focus on things that would build energy and provide real healing. And I have been knowing for a while now that working on my blog is one of the things I need to focus on as an integral part of my transformation! As this represents to me: starting to really live by having a voice, taking a stand, following my passion, doing what I love, honoring my real vision and most importantly taking the real steps required to make this happen!
Today is Monday and the Sankalpa that opened up for me last night to love, focus on and cherish for the next several weeks came to me as follow:
” I am becoming forever more the real woman I truly aspire to be!”. When I breath in this Sankalpa, I see and feel this woman in all aspects of my life; from the relationship I have with my body and food, to respecting and honoring my money and taking care of my financial future, to my relationships with others around me and my surroundings.
And during my yoga session last night as I was being, moving and breathing in my Sankalpa, we came to a pose where Melissa asked that we ask ourselves: “What steps will be required of you to take, to bring this Sankalpa into form?”
The pose was actually already a bit difficult and uncomfortable for me so it was interesting what opened up when she said that we needed to honor what was for us the steps we will need to take in order to bring our Sankalpa into reality as the days she says, where Yogis practice and live in cages is long over :). Yes, we must first nurture and cultivate our Sankalpa within ourselves but then we must share it with others by coming out into the world with it for others to learn from, be nourished by and inspired by it just as we have been!
I know this is definitely a big one for me that hit home when she said this. You can’t just have a vision and acknowledge your Sankalpa like you would do a visualization! You must really live it by bringing it into the world, once you have spent the time to love, care for it and cultivate it within yourself!!
So as uncomfortable as that was to hear her say this, what opened up for me is to focus on building and cultivating focus and core strength. And I know that for me, building core strength brings me to the place of living from my power center and from there growing a real ability to make decisions where I am able to move forward in the physical form with my real values in life!
On a more personal note here something I will share with you! I am currently living off of an a inheritance and I have never had a healthy relationship with money! As a matter of fact, it has been something that I have been completely numb to my entire life!!
Somewhat I managed to make it so far but this is nothing I could sustain at this point in my life considering the circumstances and just the stage I find myself in at this point of my life. I am saying this because it would be tempting and easy for me to delude myself with this inheritance thinking that the money will be an endless supply if I just don’t look at my bank account and that all is rosy and I can take the time I need to heal my body and just live in wonderland!
Well, having struggled with my health my entire life and being at a stage of my life where I really am on my own, it has become imminently clear that a big part of my ability to finally have real health in my life and a sustainable foundation to build a healthy thriving life upon, I will need to honor what I am and allow this life force within me to thrive in this world!
I have the luxury right now to take care of all the important things in my life so I can build a solid foundation for my life and I have to really honor my money in this, which translates as valuing and honoring my time by insuring that I spend it wisely as this is a real investment I am making into my future!
And having been especially weak lately, having lost a lot of weight, hearing those words was rather uncomfortable but I could resonate with the truth of them!! I know they are what will bring me into my power center where I can connect with the REAL power of intention and have for once in my life real living will!!! I have never felt this strength and power from within that lays right at your core! Yoga as been so beneficial for me in connecting with that part of my body which as brought to me tremendous awareness like I never had before!
I did on a few occasions already, a yoga session with Melissa called Drishti that means “point of focus”, and I found it to be rather uncomfortable as well but I was also extremely delighted to learn and realize within my body what focus really is and means and how that meaning of it translates into my body. I know I can go so much deeper with it as I keep revisiting my yoga matt and applying all that opens up for me on my matt with this into my daily living.
I have been struggling completing tasks when it comes to bringing my vision of the Million Dollar Housewife into form!!! Even when I keep the goals and the tasks at a minimum, if they involve bringing something forward into the world to share, completing them at that point as been a real struggle for me.
When I noticed how just about impossible that has been for me, I knew as I always do, not to be hard on myself, that it can just mean that there is a lot for me to move through, be in and integrate, and that it can be much bigger than I think!!!
And it is so good and important for me to see that because the temptation to get distracted by getting busy with other things in my life when this happens is so easy!! It often just happens without me hardly noticing until I find myself down at the same cross road again where I must pick up the pieces I left off previously with then more time that has gone by and wasted!
What I know now when this happens, is to not give up and postpone as postponing leads to no progress, but instead, I ask myself what can I do to support progress and movement in this, in a smooth, gentle and kind way and that is when things like finding the “point of focus” session with Melissa just comes knocking at my door. It is like just what I need shows up as I gently ask for support in moving gently forward!
So yesterday the Sankalpa took me right to that opening and seeing and showed me that I needed to be with the concept of focus even more by doing this yoga session on a regular basis as well as practical exercise in my daily living to implement what I learn from it. And how I need to do some core strength building exercise as well to help me with my living will; taking action with what truly matters!
So things really are all tied up and interconnected and yoga has been a wonderful way for me to see and realize this, helping me bring all the broken pieces of my life together, weaving them as I mend them together into this beautiful and harmonious blanket just as my mother would have woven when she was alive!!
So this morning I woke up and it is Monday and as a new week began, before I grabbed my cell phone and, checked facebook and my email, I insured that I really let in what opened up for me last night in doing this yoga session!
And here I am writing an article that I intend to complete and share with you!!!
To the power of Sankalpa
I hope you enjoyed this and learned something of value that inspires and supports you on your journey of unfolding and forever more, becoming the real beautiful and inspiring woman you are meant to be!!