Intention ~ Awareness ~ Focus ~ Discipline ~ Courage ~ Samskaras ~ Mindfulness ~ Less is more ~ Breath, love, let go..
These are just some of the words I am falling in love with as they weave their way through me on my yoga mat, and into my life.
Speaking of these words or reading books about them would have never had the impact on me as they have had through my yoga practice.
I lived my whole life being in my head which has had a tremendous toll on many aspects of my life.
So looking for solutions and understanding of things in my head only brings me deeper into my patterns, taking me further than where I really need to go, which is come home, into my body!
I have known to do things that bring me into my body for a while now as part of my journey to health and also wealth, yes I aspire and hunger for an abundant life! And I am finally gently surrendering to the goodness and truth of this inner guidance that we often receive in our life in the form of whispers.
I have had this whisper in my ears, to begin practicing yoga about a year ago, as I started to have some real health challenges rise to the surface for me. I have had this same whisper before but made the wise choice this time to gently surrender to it in the kindest of ways, taking it in tiny baby step, one at time!!
I discovered Melissa West as I was exploring and taking my baby steps and she has grown to be my teacher ever since!
Through practicing many of her one hour sessions for the last 9 months, I am in awe at what is taking shape and place deep within me in my life.
I am going through some very challenging times at all levels, from money to health and relationships!!
But it is as if my yoga practice and my life are working hand in hand! As I embrace the new and what is possible, more comes apart within me to make way and space for the new. You often hear this saying that things sometimes have to get worse before they get better, well that is the sense and experience I am having.
For example, my health is in a very fragile state at this time and as I experience it coming apart, I am knowing of good deep internal changes taking shape within me as I learn to better care for myself. I have abused my body for most of my life, not being there for myself and not properly taking care of myself. So this coming apart comes to me as no surprise. I must constantly remind myself to keep my calm as I move along this journey, and yoga is helping me do just that. It is helping me see the light when I am in the dark and find some peace in the stormiest of weathers.
I am aware as part of my healing journey that I must make some core changes in my life if I want to become healthy which for me translates as having to leave behind the person I have grown accustomed to be, with the comforts I have grown accustomed to cherish that were actually very detrimental, to make space and create this new healthy me that I aspire to be.
There is much pain, discomfort and grieving in that and thank you to Melissa, I resort to her and her yoga for support.
It appease my soul to do her yoga session even if there are times when I am only able to make my way to the mat for a few minutes and in the toughest of times just listen to a few of her words! It still changes me within! It must be the intention that is weaving its way through me as I lay on my yoga mat!! There is a little sunshine that unexpectedly rises within as I allow myself to be more present and feel my breath. And even if it is the tiniest speck of light I get to connect with, I am eternally grateful for it and I know to keep loving that, and focus on that. It shows me where the light is at times where everything seems dark.
I had no understanding of any of these words I posted above (Intention ~ Awareness ~ Focus ~ Discipline ~ Courage ~ Samskaras ~ Mindfulness ~ Less is more ~ Breath, love, let go..) as I lived my life, none!!! I was someone who lived on the run from a traumatic event I experienced as a little girl. I guess in medical terms, it is what they call post traumatic stress disorder though I believe probably many people live in this state at different extent in their lives, something that is probably what we translate as the fight or flight mode that I would say most of this world live in these days!
Everything in my life was about getting or experiencing a feeling I desperately wanted to have that would offer me a sense of relieve from any kind of stress, discomfort or pressure I was experiencing. I resorted to my own distractions, or you could say drugs of choice (food being a big one for me), to self sooth or numb myself out until all the good things in my life began collapsing on me!
I did not live by any of these mantras and when I heard of them, when people would speak of them, they just sounded like hard work and a burden to me, like some impossible task or idea I could never even dream of achieving. I already felt I was carrying this huge load on my shoulders, so just the thought of adding more weight increased this feeling of exhaustion I was already living with.
But through my yoga practice, I am growing to love and cherish these words at my core, as they reveal their true meaning to me right within my body at a cellular level.
Their meaning comes to me deeper than words ever would. They come to me as they weave their way through me, through my life, getting me untangled from a mess I had found myself in. As I grow to become more aware through my yoga poses and as I am kindly and gently present on my yoga mat, it is as if my posture is being transformed in my daily life and this new awareness in my body helps me come into alignment within.
I get to experience and witness first hand my subconscious and my body reuniting through real meaning revealing itself to me. I can see how the real meaning of these words are truly our natural state, our natural way of being and yoga serves as a wonderful tool to UN-distort ourselves, helping us come into alignment with who we really are.
So for the sake of this article and my new found focus : ), I will keep this post at this even though I can already see that I would love to elaborate more specifically on how the meaning of some of these words have already translated themselves into some sweet delightful examples in my daily life.
Thank you to Melissa for showing me through her precious yoga sessions the true meaning of these words as I learn to embrace them and abide by them one baby step at a time…
Namaste to all.
In love and gratitude,